bren's blog: "Dude!"

So I have to go back and tell a little background. One night I took my sister to meet up with a guy she was having an affair with. I went along with her to be her alibi in case her husband hears a rumor. Well as we arrived at a old vacant lot two men sitting in a car there she gets down and leaves on a walk with her sancho and his buddy stayed thee to keep me company. The man was much older then me I didn't feel no attraction just odd. Well long story short the guys were brother in laws. The guy whom stay talking there with me was married. I not knowing got involved with him. This man made me happy. Well as it turns out he left his wife for me. I left him never allowed him back in my life. 24 years later he find me living here in Denver Colorado he also lives here and is now married again different lady but now it's really bothering me cause he look for me he never tried working out his past marriage. He is killing my thoughts I can't focus I need to find a way to leave till I can think clear. Why can he affect me this way. I can't think I can't see him if I want to I need a distraction that will take my mind off of him I destroyed his life once and his tears and sentiment made me realize why I was so enthralled with this older man.

Jo was a great lover we spent time together when incident first happen. Some how Jo goes dancing he meets a woman there and this is after about 2 months knowing him in a sexual way I feel jealous because it's my sister but thing between them already pass the intimate stage when he realizes that the woman he is now dating is my sister. Yes he broke it off with my sister and he tells me he didn't know we were sisters. I decide to not tell my sister about me might be pregnant by him. Four months into my pregnancy he comes by we talk like friends. No sex with him I can't bare knowing he's been with my sister. I so wish things were different but can't change the past. I tell him never will I be with him. He accepts but does say one day he will tell my baby he is the father. Why :/? Why does he want her to know? Any way 6 months pass he is now dating someone else he met her in another city. I'm willing to meet her but can't because my cousin is coming to visit. Not a problem I will meet her when time is right. Guess what!!!!! Time was right now he was dating my cousin now :...( this man I am crazy about him but he keeps hitting bad luck meeting my family members. He breaks up with my cousin and he goes as far to tell her I am carrying his baby :/ why???? He is so confusing he keeps trying to make thing right for us to be friends for his daughters sake. I can't blame him he didn't know.

Days passed and Albert decides to be stuburn to find out why so suddenly I hate him. I tell Albert what I saw and who showed me where to find him. I learned the woman getting in his truck is his cousin and further more he actually takes me to meet them. Damage is already done I don't know how to react. I stop talking to both of them and two weeks later I start dating someone else I'm happy so I think. Until three weeks pass and I'm pregnant. Omg!! Who's baby is it Alberts, Jo, or new guys I decide to leave all three of them place no blame but continue pregnancy.